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how can u 4get some1 u really loved...n like u almost meet hym everyday...i just wished i cud truned back tyme...my lyfe is noe very miserable..hmmm...luckyly i have the most wonderful friends i ever had....haixxxx.....hmmmmmm.....i think i will b sleeping late like usuals......lyrics below ar just random....frm a song...i liked....

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1ooth post finally...slow rite...tawuh...fyi I dont like by the girl name anis.aku bebual dpn2.kalo kao bace nieh aku tak kesah...i want u to noe dat i dont like u...i noe larh tak bagoz bebual blakang org kn,jdk now aku blg kau dpn2 kau k.n ouh please jgn kater yg kiter tgglkn kau...

1st DAY OF SKEWL,OF THE TERM N I ONLY HAD 2,1/2 h OF SLEEP!!!

today nthg much to say...start off with a bad start..i dont xpect ppl to like me neither i xpect ppl to hate me...its just dat i wish i didnt went out with her dat thursday so dat i wont get irritated by her...but bad day...so................mayb im kind of bithcy of sometimes...let every single 1 of the ppl hu noes me noe my true colours...im not scared if they going to hate me.....every1 is nyce..but every is bad too..just the matter u get a chance to c it or not...

tadyk went lepak aft skewl..ddk bawa blok daerah sunpla...kecoh2...maen truth or dare...in the end it turned out to b a truth game...hahahas....no mood to elaborate...tga mendak uhs...n yeah im jujur wen it comes to everything xcept went it comes to parents...hehe....im just to lazy to do my project worth 30marks which is in cluded in CA..but its malay project..BORINGGG!!!!mendak seyh...i dont make alasans went it comes to not doing hw or project n stuff.....only had 2 days to cmplete it...mum ask me to do it..so no choice larhs....haizzzz......in the end tak uat...now i mean..limit2 uat other day...limit2 dapat 0 tros....mum is being so unreasonable....

haizzz....
i simply hate my lyfe....
i tried to cahnge this year...
since last year was like......
so i did my best to change...
bt everything is asking me not to change...
evertyhing arnd me is asking me to b like last year...
y is everything going sooo wrongg.....?
haizz,only god noes...
im like a phatetic girl hu use diaries n stuff...
hahahahas....
kutok diri sendiwik sia....
yana noes some of the contents...
im close with her...
she n kirah is the ppl hu noes my secrets...
the next tyme if i want to get a guy that is suitable,
must ask amalia n zahirah...
the 2 ppl hu can judge ppl by the outside...
n wat they say all are sooo true...
n dayana,the girl yg mulot masen..
ask her to say anything n it really happens..
hehe...

thx to my dearest DAYANA,now i can use the comp....she told me dat her mom pernah amek wire comp...den she use other wire from her other computer...den bleyh....so i did it aft my idiot sis left...too out the wire from my freaking damn old comp dat is sooo dusty....den plug it in...n yeah,it works!...thx a lot yana.....

today is alep's 2nd mothsary with dyana not dayana...hope they last long....

i miss my blog soooo damn much...its been a long tyme since i update..n i miss a lot of ppl....3 ppl in my mind rite now.....haizzz.......i wish tomoro got skewl....sial arh....mak aku tak bagy pkai comp...sial jek...



hmm.....lets talk bout just now.....went swimming pat sengkang....it was totally damn fun....den went back to CS nyer food culture...me,adilah n yana ate tom yum..adib eat dono wat...smthg wth rice....sedyh seyh....he went ro buy water wen his food nearly finish den this mak cik angkt his plate...padahal blm habes seyh...we call the mak cik den she never hear..sedyh.....:(den went to T1 rooftop n eat my SUSHI!!!!!!

yesterday he was sick...
n get to noe dayana was also sick...
haizz....
evrything deserves a 2nd chance rite...
shud i or shud i not...?
wat will we become in few months tyme...?
we will be just the same as now...
or will things change for the better..?
i dont noe...
lyfe is somethong u cant predict...
everything change in a blink of an eye..
wat u said yesterday....
was it true n did it came from the bottom of ur heart
or u just said it to please me....?
only god noes....
later tot of going out..
but it seems that almost every1 cant
limit2 aku kua ngan was n adilah jerh....
haixxxxx.........

training was okay....went there by skwel bus but head home using public bus...walao...c mak jin tuh bukan nak ckp siang2....dabes training baru blang...training 1st had to run 6 laps of the stadium near the pitch...shud fininsh in less than 15 or 16 mins...but i fininshed 17.15min...haiz....i was the last as usual wen it comes to long distance running...den sprint 5 sets of abt 10m.den went to pitch...didi 1 drill...den play game...playing game was fun...dah lamer tak maen dok...hahas....den took 67 n straight to tamp inter.it was quite long in the bus as our training at Bukit Timah dare...some of the gerls went to the international mens jnr. worldcup..me n musfirah n some the sec1's went home...till here aites..tata..!

gadoh with nazif as usual..hahas....takder keje uat diermarah...i like it wen he gets angry and start to maki2 all those stuff....in the end dier ygbinget...bukan aku...hahas...yesterday went to my kakak sedare nyer bbq pit....she came late sia....i sat there rotting....doing nothing...eat2...n gosh i saw my abg sedare.....den saw irfan...shocking sia..!den saw my neighbour....den went home...later im gonna watch night at the museum 2..yey!!me.my sis n my bro...while my parents something else...hehe....jahat eyhk wani tgglkn makbapak sendiwik gy tgk cite laen....wakakaka....they are like watching cite yg not so fun....so we 3 tgk citer laen larh...siang2 dah plan taw...hehe...till here ppl...bbye!

me:wonder wats in ur head now...another gurl or ur studies......

hym:wanna noe another truth?!I STILL LUV ********! eu hapi now..?

i started crying in the dark while my sis were talking to me...

me:since wen...?

hym:since d daey i saw her in sec 2...she has been d onli 1 i had evr luv..n eu were juz my medicine..to get rid of my pain of seein ******** everidae in skwel..i still luv her more dhen aniting in diz world...she's lyke a drug to me..i reli need her in my lyfe bt as if she giv's a fck abt me....

i went to an empty n dark room....i started crying....crying like i had never cried for the past 10 years...

me:so wat,am i just a temporary gf to u just to make u 4get bt her?dares no point of me in ur lyfe coz u will still love her.am i nthg to u?all this while i tot dat u really2 loved me n dat u wud 4get bt her.bt i was wrong...i was deeply in love with u.u didnt knew dat.n this is wat u did to me.u wanted to let go of the burden n heartpain ur feeling,bt in the end, u made some1 suffer bcoz of the burden u tried to put away.i shud had never loved u..............

i cry n cry for 15mins....

hym:yeah..true..dats y diz guilt is stil in my heart..im truly sorie..i gtg..bye.

den my sis came into the room...she asked me y...i asked her to read all my messages...den she was pissed off with it n asked me to chill 1st bfore coming inside my room....i cried fr another 10 mins....finally,i had to stop myself from crying...so i did it n went in to my room...i was quite close wif my sister's bf so i talked to hym on the fone while my sis was talking to hym bfore dat...

i was grateful to have friends in my lyfe..i txt syaakirah...it was 1:24am..i tot dat she wud b asleep...but she was still awake..told her everything..den she asked me to chill.....she's the only 1 dat wud b there wen i have problems....with some of my other friends like dayana,saqinah,zahirah,amalia n adilah...without them,this werld means nothing to me...

today will b a short post..
my left hand is like aching...
dono y...
training was quite al right...
xcept had to run 7 or 8 laps of the pitch...
it was not dat hot compared to TP...
i dont feel like going to training anymore...
coz i noe i wont play dat often...
11 aside..haish...
i dont think i will b playing..
like usual,i will b a substitute..
my mom asked me to quit...
but wat for....?
it will b a waste for all these years training
like mad cow..
den IF i quit,wat cca do u xpect me
to join..??
nothing xcept photography....
he is currently buzy...
im at home alone..
haizz....
how i wish i play well in hockey....